"Not all those who wander are lost"

To any readers I might have, this blog is part craft and business matters along with artisan features and commentaries, but also part therapeutic journal writing. Hopefully, this jumble of thoughts and bits of info come across in a slightly cohesive manner.

I love this quote by Tolkien. "Not all those who wander are lost." It gives me hope that I do have an ultimate destination in life, even if I'm not quite sure how to get there.

Things have been moving slower and slower in the economy and my family is not the first nor the last that will feel the impact. I was unable to retain my position in the financial services field and have been looking elsewhere for employment. I wish with all my heart that I could make a living doing what I love from home, and be here for my two boys at all times or even volunteer at their school. But unfortunately, this will probably have to wait. I am currently on the prowl for a new job and at the moment, I want as far away from the financial realm as possible!
So I have applied for teaching positions, particularly in the area of special needs.

My sweet little 5 yr old son, Caleb, has autism and this just seemed like a natural area to start looking. I felt very strongly that this is where I was supposed to be, but I have really struggled finding a position as a staff assistant. I am so tired of hearing "well, we narrowed it down to you and so-and-so, but I'm afraid we have decided to go with so-and-so." AHHHHHHGG!!! I am going to completely lose it if I hear it one more time. Why would I feel so strongly about it yet have no doors open? Sometimes I am not sure if I am "wandering" or if I am really just "lost". Maybe I am both?!

“There is nothing like looking, if you want to find something. You certainly usually find something, if you look, but it is not always quite the something you were after.” -Tolkien